Chapter 8

Dear Diary,

That night after the game we - Jake and I - returned to our cabin, wasted. I picked up Katie who was awake by then and felt asleep on our way here. I was playing with her when suddenly I felt a large weight on my head.

"Jake?" I called him as he was in the bathroom. Quickly he came to the bedroom.

"Yes honey, what’s wro...?" He couldn't even finish the question he found out what was wrong and asked me not to move. He came forward and picked up what ever was on my head. As he brought it in front of me, I screamed and jumped with Katie a few feet back only to realize it was a simple spider. Jake laughed his ass out at that. I lightly slapped on his shoulder playfully as joined in laughing.

Today, a month has passed by since Tanya has cancelled. Still no hear from her. I frowned a little and then started laughing like a maniac remembering the spider situation.

"What's so funny? “Jake asked. Only the word 'spider' made him laugh hard remembering that day too. Uncle Em looked at us funnily only to make us laugh even harder. Suddenly as I was laughing I felt a large blow of pain in my lower stomach. I stopped laughing and Jake grew cautious as well.

"What's wrong, darling?"

"Aaa..."I cried out in pain as I felt a sudden pull in my stomach. Immediately I put a hand over my mouth and being unable to reach the bathroom in time, I aimed for the kitchen sink and threw up. Jake came over to hold back the few loose strands of hair off my forehead. Then mom and Dad came over running from their cottage. I drank a glass of water leaning against the counter of the kitchen and held a hand on my lower stomach.

“How do you feel?” Dad asked.

“Nauseated!” I replied. He gave a call to grandpa Carlisle to come and check up on me from the hospital.

After about 10 minutes Grandpa Carlisle was checking on me on my bed upstairs in my previous room. “When did you have your last menstrual cycle?” he asked.

“Um…I think three weeks ago.”

“Okay so did you have any abnormal feelings the last few days, anything weird?”

“No. But I have been quite tried lately and dreaming a lot too.”

“Ah, I see. Okay I’ll have an ultra sonogram of you in my office.”

With Jake carrying me, almost begging for an answer to what happened to me; I was taken to Carlisle’s office that held all the hospital bed and other diagnosis stuff. I felt relaxed with the cold ultrasound jelly like thing he put on my lower stomach. A picture showed up on the screen at which Dad, Carlisle and Esme gasped.

“What?” Jake asked instantly afraid.

“Nessie you are pregnant?!” Grandpa replied.

“What?” Jake and me asked, appalled.

“But we used protection. How did this happen! I mean…” Jake blabbered on and on. I just stared at the screen as drops of tears flew down my cheeks. I was going to be a mother! I couldn’t hold back the joy inside me. Finally I discovered the part of me that I was dying to find out – the ability to be a mother – of carrying a little one in my arms who would continue the Cullen’s and Black’s incredible family. I broke down suddenly crying fully at the love I felt for the little one on the screen. A few minutes later Carlisle spoke up.

“Well the protection is not 100% effective and somehow it didn’t work. But on the other hand I have good news. This baby has a heartbeat so I’m guessing its going to be more human-like in the pregnancy process. So Nessie you should be having a 9 month long pregnancy. After work I will return home and do some tests to see if I can find out the baby’s gender already. Because who knows what kind it is with the whole vampire-human-werewolf parents! Until then, Jake, Renesmee congratulations on being to-be-parents. May God bless this child with immense gift and good health like its parents.”

I was still too shocked to open my mouth to thank Carlisle. Everyone in the room was grinning from ear to ear by now. Jake and I only stayed at our positions blankly. It was a lot to sink in this quickly.

Finally our statue ness broke as I let out my breath with a loud ‘huff’ and Jake laid down to bring his chocolate brown soft lips to mine. We were in bliss! A complete new family was to be added in the Cullen’s and Black’s already huge family. Dad, mom and then everyone took their chances in giving us a big hug and deliver sweet words of blessing to my unborn child.

Dad asked if we wanted to see the baby on the screen. We obviously said yes and he pointed to a tiny almost unseen dot. My eyes again welled up with tears to know that I could bear to conceive a whole new living being inside me. We requested Dad to give us a picture of the ultrasound and soon we were sitting at the living room downstairs simply looking at the picture and admiring both Jake and my creation.

Then mom came to sit with us and Dad obviously tagged along. It still amazes me that after so many years Dad and Mom seem like they had just met now at their high school cafeteria. Their love was not a bit less than the first time; on the contrary it grew both physically and emotionally every day. Sometimes so much, to make us puke!

“Nessie, dear what do you feel?” Mom asked.

“Special, excited, happy, surprised, amazed, enchanted with love, lucky – I feel all the happy feelings in the world. It’s like my heart has not halved but instead doubled with the joy and love I feel for Jake and my baby!”

“Huh, I felt this exact emotion when you first moved inside me. Edward wanted to take you out of me but no matter how much anyone wanted to or how much monstrous you might have been, I loved you and your Dad more that anything in the world. And after the first time you kicked nothing else mattered to me, but you and Edward. You two are the most precious thing I ever loved so much with all my heart. You are so lucky to have a normal pregnancy unlike mine. If not for Rose to support me then, you couldn’t have been able to sit here holding the picture of my grandchild. Gosh, I really am going to be a grandmother. I am getting so old!”

Everyone laughed at that. Dad kept on apologizing for thinking I was a monster even though no one held a grudge against him.

Then Esme came over to give me the biggest hug and said, “Thank you so much for listening to me. I am so happy that you are pregnant...even though it is accidentally.” She said before I could protest.

I could not speak anymore. I was too overwhelmed to talk. I just laid my head against Jake’s shoulder and he pulled me into a light hug, kissing my hair. “How do you feel, DAD?” I joked.

“Weird, happy, weird again. How can I thank you Nessie? For giving me such a big gift, something I never even dreamt I would have---!? “I cut him off by putting one finger on his lips and saying, “Ssh, don’t thank me. Thank the protection for not being effective.” I teased.

Then Alice called Jake for a minute but he returned with a beautiful necklace in less than 30 seconds. Getting on his knees, Jake spoke “Thank you so much Renesmee for giving me your love, for giving me a gift I will be forever indebted to you for!” He lightly tied the gold chain around my neck as a golden locket hung on my throat. The locket held a big golden heart with ‘MERCI’ … on it. My eyes became glassy.

“I was saving that for after the wedding for being grateful to you to marry me. But I am even more thankful now than ever. Thank you my Nessie!” With that we melted onto each other, the love and passion heating up every second as we kissed passionately.

What did I do to deserve such happiness? To have Jake all to myself. I couldn’t stop showing my gratitude to Jacob Ephraim Black – for being everything to me all at once. The greatest friend anyone could ever have, the best brother, the most romantic boyfriend/lover, the loving partner and soon-to-be-husband and most importantly a great person!

Sweet dreams baby,

Yours truly…MOM!!! (Yay, its so much fun to say that!)